This week, I experienced the letting go of a block relating to how I act towards people who in anyway may depend on me.
Let us start with the positive. I always want the very best for anyone that depends on me for any reason at all. I take responsibility concerning others very seriously. Too seriously it turns out. So seriously actually, that I loose a lot of myself in the seriousness of it all. I tighten up and lose a lot of my fun. I lose my freeing connection to the Universe by being too concerned with details that may not matter to others as much as to me. I want everything to be perfect.
I have been asking for help in this area and my prayers are slowly being answered. This week, with a few people visiting, I am noticing a lot of subtle thought patterns and physical tightening. They led me down the path of discovering a different way of relating to people.
When I realized this new way, instead of feeling happy I felt pain, guilt, regret. How could I have lived in this way?! It is so unhelpful and counterproductive.
No point of letting a good thing go sour. Time to get back up. I give Gratitude for finally being shown the blocks and being given the opportunity to let old patterns go. I understand that I was doing the best I could at any given time. I forgive myself and move on with Love.